Sometimes I absolutely HATE computers! Did you all get that? Let me say it again just in case you didn’t understand. I absolutely HATE computers! Sometimes.
I just lost my Blog. I was able to retrieve my posts, but I lost the comments. No biggie, but after the day I’ve had, the littlest things can make me cry. I cry when I’m angry, not just when I’m sad. The house stuff here is not going so well. I just want to scream. I’d really like to just throw it all away and start over. That’s what we’re having to do with our lives so maybe we should. Just leave it and be done with it. But then of course we wouldn’t have anywhere to go and at the rate this day has gone and the things that have gone wrong on both ends, we don’t have anywhere to go anyway. So I guess it really doesn’t matter after all.
Just one nice thing, just one. Is that really too much to ask for? I know, I know. I should be happy to have a roof over my head and food to eat and clothes on my family. But you know I don’t want to hear that - I’m SICK of hearing that! And right now we may not have a roof over our heads or food to eat and the children are in need of things. I don’t have the money to take of that and the time to do it. I’ll take a job and Wal-mart and stay here for now. I have got to feel settled before I end up in the loony bin in a white coat. I feel like a horse with a carrot in front of me that I’ll never actually get my teeth on it. This needs to end . . . soon!
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Bless you~
The only thing I can think of to offer is Elisabeth Elliot’s timeless, “Do the next thing”.
Judge not the LORD by feeble sense,
But trust him for his grace;
Behind a frowning providence,
He hides a smiling face.
His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding ev’ry hour;
The bud may have a bitter taste,
But sweet will be the flow’r.
I’m not the “hugging-kind” nor the “crying-kind,” but right now, if I were there, I’d just “hold” you and cry with you….
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