Well, I am trying hard not to see last year as a failure. I know it was not, but I look at it and begin to feel I was. I know - what do you mean? After all I did come close to dying after giving birth. It was just too much for me physically to do. I didn’t realize just how much blood I lost and weak that had left me until a few weeks into the January semester and the children went to school down the street. I was grateful the school is so close, but I would not have had the energy to have them all at home. More on all that later.
As we get further and further away from this past school year (yay summer) and closer and closer to the next one, I find myself more and more wanting to bring them home and keep them here. There is so much to weigh in for us, as with most families, but I find myself also rather nervous.
The one who is definitely going to be home is also the one who wants desperately to go back to school. I can not ignore my gut feelings, my intuitions, my instincts, just because that is what she wants to do. The school system here has all the 6th graders in the entire district at the same school - why, oh, why would anyone want to send their child to a school that has nothing but 6th graders? Nothing but a few hundred 11/12 year old children? That is NOT who I want my child hanging around with. Oh, the hormone fest of one child is enough, I can not imagine sending her into a building with nothing but raging hormones and hell, fire, and brimstone oozing from every crack in the brick walls. And that school seems to be the wasteland of teachers - teachers who need to go somewhere, but have no where else to go (at least that’s what I get from the grapevine of parents and the run-ins they have had). Maybe it is just the fact that those poor teachers are locked up with all those crazy hormones all day long. I think I would be a zombie and a bit shaken and frazzled too. I might even lose my temper a few times - wouldn’t you?
The plans have begun for another year at home and we are off to ‘Bama for a homeschool convention soon. Please send your words of encouragement and all thoughts and cyber-vibes this way.
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Be thankful you can go to a homeschooling convention!!! I’m jealous. Newborns and last trimesters don’t make for jolly homeschool conventions, but then my husband wouldn’t dare take me to one in such a condition–I would get too worn out. It will be fun to read about your adventures in homeschooling. I’ll be doing K and 1st grade this year, along with frequent breaks for nursing Ian.
Hope you find some good curriculum in Bama!!
WOW It sounds like you had a crazy winter. I found your blog while looking for TOG schedules. Are you going to homeschool this coming year, and use TOG again? We’re starting year one in the fall. How far did you get before the baby was born?
Rae: Thanks for stopping by my blog! This is so FUNNY but ya know we’ve communictated on the TOG boards before AND I’ve been to your SmockN website too! lol Small world, this internet~ :)
I thought it was interesting that we use mostly the same curricula AND HST… hehe Come to find out I’ve ’seen’ you before.
MommaKnows - I realized this after I visited your blog. As a matter of fact, I just couldn’t remember why I had been over there before - you know, how I found you. heehee.